Where do I begin... Lisa is my best friend we have gone through a lot together the last 9 yrs. I have been blessed with having her in my life . I now am faced with losing her forever . I know she will be watching over me. I went to go pick up some things she has asked me to help her with and I am so grateful for the fact that we have always had such an honest friend ship. They are pictures of her hand when she rolled her Suzuki. She has asked me to put them in an album for her. Not so sure what she wants but I will do what I can . When I went to get things for the album she showed me a lump on the side of her head,.... doc is not so sure if it is a tumor or not. last week she was told that the chemo was not working at all and she needed to check in to hospice...
OK I know I am suppose to be honest with her that is what our friendship has always been based on but I also feel I need to be strong for her so she can be the one who breaks down not me. She is the one going through this she is the one who has to make arrangements at the funeral home not me... so what is killing me inside I cant share with my best friend... I don't want her to hurt any more then I know she already does.... so here I am crying cause I am loosing my best friend blogging..... This truely is not how i want things to go. I wish i was able to take all of her pain away .... Hell I just wish I knew what to do. I so miss the times we would laugh so hard we would end up crying over nothing at all . I so miss the daily texting and chats we had. I do understand I really do. Dont mean I dont miss it.....